Bucky Bothell
Eng 101
“PENNYWISE, BADGE OF PRIDE”
All the bullshit that I see so much I can’t believe grown man just tryin’ to be true to myself impossibly I may not ever get rich might wind up diggin’ a ditch I won’t cry no I won’t bitch I won’t back down and I’ll never quit It is my badge of pride -hardcore ’til the day I die just tryin’ to survive I won’t back down or apologize Say what you wanna say I’m not listening anyway I’ll believe what I wanna believe true to myself that’s how it’s gotta be. All the methods that I use all the things I use and abuse it all leaves me confused I’ve been torn up, beat down and bruised but somehow I was saved and I’m standing here today, now I do things my own way cause I’m never going back again.
This song holds very true for me in many aspects. At the age of 18 I was in-between a rock and a hard place. The two things that were holding me down were going to play baseball at basically any college I wanted to and going to the Marine Corps as I wanted to. My dad was the one that wanted me to pursue a career in baseball, but it just wasn’t any fun for me anymore. Once you get to certain levels of sports it doesn’t seem fun anymore, for me anyways. After making the choice to join uncle Sams misguided children my eyes were suddenly opened to a whole new world of craziness. A couple of years into it I got sent over to Iraq, I did and saw some very bad things over there that have changed my life forever. This has hardened me to no end, emotionally, physically and most definitely mentally. But even before that I was very different from most people, I don’t care what people think about me if you don’t like the way I do things that’s fine but I’m going to continue to do them my way. I would love to be successful in my life and I most definitely will but I don’t have too much pride that I won’t be a ditch digger. As my dad always told me “if you’re gonna be a ditch digger be the best one there is”, these words have stuck with me since I was tiny. In an essence I always try to do good for people and to people but I really don’t want any help from others. Everything that I get in life I would like to achieve by myself, this song has always stuck out to me and been one of my favorites, now you see why.
